I’ve always dreamed about the day I would find out I was pregnant. You see women coming up with these cute and sometimes extravagant ways of telling her husband but our story is quite the opposite! If you haven’t already, be sure to read the post on why we starting “trying” before you read this.
It seemed like all the listed symptoms for getting off the pill were the same symptoms for pregnancy so I was all sorts of nuts! Seriously birth control does crazy things to your body, I felt like an ex junkie the way my body was treating me (I also plan on writing about that because I felt lost when I got off the pill...not many resources out there). So, the week of Thanksgiving I was supposed to start my period and that came and went. I had a feeling I may be pregnant but honestly my body was so out of whack and the internet said that I could have a 35 day cycle coming off the pill so I wasn't ready to run out and pee on a stick. It feels weird admitting this but I was kind of excited when I woke up with nausea and had to run to the bathroom one morning. I’m pretty sure I could have taken a positive test any day that week but because of Thanksgiving and family in town, I decided to wait, knowing I wouldn't be able to keep it a secret and I wanted to be able to see the doctor before telling people. I was too anxious Saturday morning (family was leaving later that day) so I woke up and took a pregnancy test and it was negative. It was one of those cheap-o Dollar Tree tests that shows you 1 or 2 lines (heads up...pregnancy tests are expensive!) I immediately saw 1 line after about 2 seconds so I threw it away and cursed my body for not getting a period! Fast forward to a couple hours later…family was gone, Jon was putting up our Christmas tree and I was cleaning our guest rooms upstairs. I was emptying the trash when I thought to myself, wait…what if I didn't wait long enough for the results? I raced downstairs and fished the pregnancy test out of the trash in my bedroom and sure enough…it was positive, with 2 lines. I grabbed the box and read that you aren't supposed to read it a couple hours after you test so I took a Clear Blue Digital Test.
I have to mention that Jon and I talked about taking a test together to find out but we had already taken one a few weeks before when I was a day late and it was negative so I didn't want to be that crazy lady who wants to take one every month (honestly it was more sad being excited to take it with Jon and then find it was negative). I decided to take it on my own. I read the directions like I was studying for the MCAT and did my thing. A little time ticker came up on the screen while I waited and I was antsy so I went out to grab some laundry and chat with Jon. Y’all….this was the longest 3 minutes of my life! I ran back in the bathroom and saw the word PREGNANT and immediately started crying. It was such a surreal feeling that I've never experienced and doubt I ever will again. A baby was inside of me! It just didn't feel real. Marriage is huge, buying a house is huge, but making a human…GINORMOUS! I cried and laughed and prayed…until realizing I had no idea how to tell Jon. I wished I would have looked at Pinterest to find a cute way to tell him (or at least showered, put on makeup, or changed out of my PJs) but that didn't happen. I had to give myself a pep talk before walking into our family room to find Jon singing Christmas carols by the tree. I called his name and stuck out the test as he turned around and I immediately burst back into tears. Jon had the biggest smile on his face and tears in his eyes and said “I had a feeling!”. I remember saying “can you believe it” “are you happy” “does it really say pregnant”. We stood in the doorway for about 10 minutes hugging and crying before finally calming down. The next couple of hours were a blur, a perfect blur. Christmas lights, Christmas music, my husband, a sweet baby..and Ernie of course! We tried telling him he was going to be a big brother but I don’t think he understood. We got out my period app (thank goodness for those) and tried to calculate our due date. We talked about all the fun things we have coming up and how I am going to have a big belly in the summer. We got giddy when we realized we’d have a cute little baby on Halloween and Christmas next year. It was wonderful and a day I will never forget. The Lord is so faithful!
I had to take a picture to make sure it really DID say pregnant :-)(btw for future pregnancies, I will only buy Clearblue tests, nothing like seeing those words rather than searching for a faint line)
Daddy to be!
I prayed for this child, and the Lord has granted me what I asked of Him.
-1 Samuel 1:27