Well here we are. Today marks exactly 40weeks pregnant, our due date (and my sister's birthday!). The past 10 months it was laughable to think I'd actually get to this day without a baby. Boy was I wrong! As much as I've wanted this baby early, I am so proud of my little body for keeping him in all 40 weeks. I am barely 5 feet tall and people just kept saying I would NEVER make it full term. Small people can do it too! It's been a weird few days. I've had lots of excited and anxious tears but in all honesty, I am very calm. I feel like around 35-37 weeks I was so anxious and worried and uptight about the baby coming early and now here we are, it could happen any moment, and I am at peace.
I've been sleeping horribly thanks to pregnancy insomnia but spending those twilight hours in scripture, prayer, or just in complete peace of mind thinking about the upcoming days. Friday night I was wide awake at 3am and was reading in the book of Phillipians...
“All seek their own, not the things that are Jesus Christ’s.” (Philippians 2:21)
I realized I was spending too much time thinking about every possible situation that could be for the baby's birth. What if my water breaks at night? What if I don't know when I'm in labor? August 5th works really well for my family but I love the date August 7th. I was taking the precious works of God and not trusting His timing. Lord not my will, but Yours. A dear friend told me yesterday, just remember that before the universe was formed, God knew my son's birthday and that in this waiting, I need to press into God and trust in His timing and purpose. Funny how the last few months have flown by yet the last few days drag on. The Lord has done so much in my heart since becoming pregnant and I know the more we wait, the more He is prepping us for the moment we meet our son.
I didn't think we'd be baby-less this weekend but we've actually been busier than weeks before. Family dinners and game nights, baby showers (see my huge belly picture below), date nights, church hopefully one last time, watching my brother play basketball and even holding our friends precious 1 day old baby boy. I knew sitting at home would just make me antsy and anxious so yes I am that 40+week pregnant woman who plans on going out with friends tonight and staying busy until baby comes. The sheets are washed, clothes are folded... we are ready for you baby boy!
We go to the doctor this afternoon so if baby doesn't come tonight, I'll have an update for you tomorrow. Be sure to follow me on Instagram for baby updates, I will most likely post when we are admitted to the hospital :).
What we've been up to...
39w4d, was hoping for an August 1st baby!
Summer nights on the patio, thinking about the meaning of life
Jon's dad's hospital bracelet from 55 years ago, baby Hart will wear it SOON!
Waiting can be fun with this guy
40weeks vs 33weeks! Showering baby Avery
Family dinner (minus Jacob) for Cori's 27th!
Embry just adores her uncle Jon