My sweet boy!
Wednesday, October 9, 2013
As you can imagine, our little Ford takes up quite a lot of our time. Sunday night I ate leftovers with one hand while bouncing a fussy baby and Jon came in from hanging Halloween lights and asked me what was for dinner. Yeah... things have changed since having a baby! Before Ford was born, Jon and I talked about the importance of our marriage and continuing to place it above our baby. Physically Ford comes first because I can't exactly leave a screaming, hungry baby to fend for himself, but emotionally, there is no way I can be a good parent unless I am connecting with my husband. Jon and I are still good at connecting now that we are parents but I can't lie to you and say it is easy. We still eat dinner together without TV but one of us has their foot on the bouncer to entertain Ford and we still love playing games but I am usually nursing Ford simultaneously...I've learned how to do a lot one handed ha!
We know this season of life is temporary and soon we'll be able to put Ford down at a reasonable hour and have dinner alone rather than racing to bed the second we put him down to get a full nights sleep. And it will get easier to leave him with a sitter as he gets older. Jon is absolutely, hands down my best friend in the entire world. I think a lot of people say that about their spouse because it just sounds good but Jon is everything I could ever ask for not only in a husband but a friend too. I need long late night conversations with him and laugh attacks to the point of tears. That's why we knew how important getting away on our own would be.
Last Friday we left Ford for the first time with my parents to go see The Book of Mormon downtown. It's funny because that weekend my grandparents, sisters, and aunt happened to be in town so Ford was WELL taken care of! I had been looking forward to this night for months... we had the tickets even before Ford was born and I had pumped milk ready to go within a week of his birth. It was so fun to get dressed up and wear a non nursing friendly dress (no one tells you you won't be able to wear basically your entire wardrobe while nursing).
Leading up to the night out I was feeling really great! I kissed my baby boy goodbye and didn't look back. It wasn't until we got to the theater and the show was about to start that I looked down and saw a video text from my sister. Gulp. I got a huge frog in my throat and tapped Jon. I held back tears and told Jon I missed Ford. It was weird. I was SO fine with it until I realized he was awake and making other people happy... away from me. I shut my phone and didn't watch the video until intermission.
I called for an update at intermission and felt so much better talking to my mom about how cute he was being.... he is quite the late night entertainer! We enjoyed the rest of the show and I was excited to get back to my little man...
It was a great first night away... we were gone for 4 hours and Ford did great. My birthday is on Monday and we plan on leaving him for dinner out. Although I know we will probably talk about Ford the whole time, I am really looking forward to getting out without him :).