I'll admit it. I have been a little overwhelmed the past couple of weeks. Traveling out of the country for work, my husband traveling, trying to finish a million house projects, hosting a 30 person party Friday night, hosting a bachelorette party weekend next weekend and a special baby shower for my sister the next. Oh yeah, and not to mention a full time job, Zumba, blog, church, husband, bible time, social life. I know it's all good things, but still. I am the kind of person who lays awake at night worrying about what color lampshade I should put in the guestroom for our first set of guests this weekend. Or if I am making enough food for our party Friday. And my mind goes a million miles a minute. It's crazy because I thrive on a busy schedule but sometimes I stretch myself too thin.
I am pretty good at external rest. I get enough sleep at night (sometimes too much) and I indulge in TV time on the couch and back rubs from my husband. It is the internal rest I struggle with.
I've never outright heard the voice of God (like Moses) but he sure did speak to me on Sunday. Church focused on rest and the large emphasis scripture puts on internal rest. The Lord knew I would be in a busy season right now, and he got me out of bed, drove me to church, knowing this would be medicine for my soul. It takes a mere few sentences for the bible to talk about rest in the book of Genesis. On the 7th day, He rested.
I felt as if I could exhale. My mental to do lists stopped multiplying and I rested in the presence of God. How is it that I can preach Psalm 46:10, Be still and know that I am God, yet I can't rest myself.
Now don't get me wrong, rare is it that I am simultaneously planning 3 huge events at my house and leaving the country, I do have a pretty normal life most of the time. There are seasons in my life that I am immersed in God's rest and feeling internally at peace, I think that is normal for any human being. And rest is at our fingertips. The Lord's love is so attainable yet we don't acknowledge it. Most of the time I tell myself, I can rest when it's over. But it is never over. There is always another call to make, email to send, project to take on.
& I have found the perfect verse to get me through these hectic times
'The joy of the Lord is your strength' - Nehemiah 8:10
I keep reminding myself how lucky I am to have a full plate. That the things that keep me up worrying aren't half as bad as what others are experiencing. Planning parties means I have a social life. Painting a bedroom means I have somewhere to call home. And last minute date nights mean I have someone to share my life with.
Remember that you are allowed to rest, externally and more importantly internally. But it is a choice. Living in a sabbath rest is a daily decision. One that we are free to make because the Son of God gave us that freedom.