Last night we watched the movie, 50/50. We have been wanting to see the movie ever since seeing previews but I am not really a movie theater person. I like watching movies in the comfort of my own home so I don't mind waiting until they come out on Netflix.
Have you guys seen it?
I spent the last hour of the movie with a frog in my throat and ending up sobbing for a good 30 minutes. I don't know what came over me but this movie really got to me. Adam was only 27 and got diagnosed with this rare form of cancer. His symptoms were back pain and night sweats. And it got me thinking...I am not 27. This could happen to me. It could happen to anyone. Now I don't plan on living in fear and worry the rest of my life but this movie reminded me how precious each day of our lives is.
I remember having a hard time dealing with sickness and death after the loss of a Younglife leader to breast cancer, right after she gave birth to her first baby. I kept asking God, "why?! why does such an amazing, Christian woman have to go through all this pain and lose her battle while there are such terrible people living in this world?" And that's when I came to realize that God has a plan for each of us. He has a duty in mind that we will each fulfill. And when we complete those tasks, our time on earth is over. Time to go home to the Lord. I was talking about this same thing with a friend this week and talking about how as humans, we are selfish when it comes to death. We would rather our friends and family members be here on this earth suffering (whether it be from physical pain and illness or emotional, mental and spiritual pain) than be taken away from us. But what comes after this short time we have on earth is so much greater than any of us could ever imagine. A paradise without pain, without suffering and without sadness.
"Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me. In my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am." John 14:1-3